DROPKICK MURPHYS

"Walk Away"

So you say you fell in love
And you're gonna get married
Raise yourself a family
How simple life can be
Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you aint got the heart
to finish what you started

Yeah you fell in love
And you went and got married
Had yourself a family
How simple life can be
Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you aint got the heart
to finish what you started

The ones that you loved
The ones that you left behind
The ones you said you'd try to find
Are they tryin' to find you?
[x2]

Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you ain't got the heart
to finish what you started
You walked out that door
To find out where you belong
To fulfill your own selfish dreams
I think you might have forgotten

The ones that you loved
The ones that you left behind
The ones you said you'd try to find
Are they tryin' to find you?
[x2]

Wow, one week, no sleep. Going to bed right now!

I love my Sam, I've missed her so. Last night Sam and Marge and I spend the night girl talking, first over margarita's at Mexi's, then in a neighbours hot tub. It was such a great relaxing night. It's been a long time since I've gotten to have a chat like that. Marge wants to go see Amadeus too, so to Ang I say :P for being a poo on my excitement.

I think I'm finally dragging myself up out of that negative funk to sit in a relatively neutral position. I do have a lot on my list of things to do and decisions to make, but at least now I feel like I have control over those decisions, and things won't end up badly "no matter what."

Dance today was fun too. I'm so far behind, but the beauty is that I don't care, I just do what I can. I think I'm starting to apply that policy to the rest of life. We get off balance sometimes, but we just need to center ourselves again, then make the next move.

Speaking of ballet, anyone interested in seeing the Atlantic Ballet Theatre perform Amadeus at The Playhouse on Friday?

My head's been spinning in circles all day. I don't know up from down anymore. Everything just seems to give me a bad feeling. My classmates would rather have two classes scheduled for the same time slot than have to take a night class, and my prof is too self-important to teach a night class. This means I have to drop the tech. elective I've been wanting to take. I haven't gotten my last paycheck, even though Mom forwarded it to me a week ago. Everything else has just blended into a mind full of confusion and upset.

And today is officially a rotten fucking day.

This whole going back to school thing is only kinda fun. Is anybody else enjoying this solids assignment as much as I am? And another thing; why do companies feel it necessary to make job application deadlines this early when we aren't available until May?

Today was a blurr. I'm still awake.

Everything's coming up roses

Or at least so it seems. I'm getting to take the elective I want. I've already been invited to two parties this weekend as well as out for drinks. To think, I was coming back to Fredericton under the impression that things just weren't going to be good. I would have to take a random class that I had no interest in, and I wouldn't have any friends. Yay for everyone not forgetting about me while I was gone! Why is it that I only seem to become social when I know I'll be leaving soon?

What's with the anonymous comments? If you don't start leaving your names I'll have to disable anonymous commenting and I'd really rather not do that. The purpose of anonymous commenting is so that friends who don't have blogger accounts can leave comments, not so that you can leave comments without leaving your name. I thought we were all big kids and understood that concept.

On a semi related note: my apologies for the word verification in my comments, but I was starting to get comment spam.

The biggest question of life: the devil you know or the devil you don't?

I think what it comes down to is that I get overwhelmed by too many options.

I feel totally swamped by the simple task of choosing a technical elective. Today people asked to have my senior project proposal class moved, which would free up another time slot, making other technical electives possible. That means I could take Energy and the Environment. The other two I was considering were Steam and Gas Turbines, and Managing Engineering and Information Technology Projects. The Management course would be the easiest, and the Energy course would be most interesting, but the Turbine course would be most useful to my degree. I don't even want to have to take another class, and I think that's the most important factor in the difficulty of this decision. Unfortunately, I don't have a choice about that. Booo!

Wow, it just occured to me what a geek I am. I'm sitting here in the middle of a room full of chaos chatting on my computer. Where do my priorities lie?

Wow, okay, so finally settling in at school. Everything has arrived, the things I brought from home, the things I sent from Alberta, the things B had put in storage, and my fridge that Aaron had. Tonight I finally got connected to the internet and got my fridge cleaned. Tomorrow I'll have to pick up groceries. It's strange being back, but I am being made to feel welcome. Thursday night I was at Kevin and Aaron's for a couple rousing games of Settlers, then last night we had a good ol' PEI cornboil at Sam's place, and this afternoon Aaron and I hit up the market. My room still isn't completely put together, but I'm working on it, and isn't that what Sunday's are for?

What if...

I think too much? What if I "what if" too much? What if I'm missing the good stuff because of it?

I have got to be completely insane. I'm going to a concert where I've heard there were 85000 tickets...and I'm going with the Beaterboys. But really, I thought to myself, how many opportunities does a girl get to go to a concert with her dad. We'll see how well I survive...