God I hate this new blogger gui! It sucks shit. It's too retro, trying to be easy to use and attractive, but actually is more complicated and ugly. Enough.

This whole job situation has me in denial. I thought I had a job. I was 90% sure of it. That's not like me to be over-confident about those things. I'm thinking back to my theory of getting a laid-back job in retail or something...book-store perhaps? Who knows. The odd part is that I wouldn't mind working for Mom. It's mindless work. You don't have to know anything specific. I speak excellent French, I have a general knowledge of history, and an slight intrest in random things like are put on exhibition. I have no clue.

Well, it's been a time. Love and congrats to the new family. You've worn me out.

I called the garbage people yesterday. The guy who worked there last year went back. I am once again in need of employment. I thought I had that. Damn you Joel!

My hard disk officially died yesterday. We're taking it back to future shop tonight. They will replace it. Otherwise, they will be called nasty things that I will not publish.

Okay, new "to-do list":

• Hem Emma's dress
• Take in my dress
• Pick rhubarb
• Make rhubarb tarts
• Make petit-fours
• Make merangues

Notice a theme?

What a day. Lots and lots of Mother's day visiting occured. All of my living motherly figures got a visit today. I'm now worn out, and totally freaked out about tomorrow. I have to go do a sort of a job interview at 10:00 AM tomorrow, I suppose you could call it a second interview, and I suppose this could have something to do with my nervousness.

What a day. I got quite a few resumes and cover letters done last night. I had a call this morning for an interview this afternoon. Tonight Mom and I went to her graduate mixer. Then we ran into a friend of Mom's and went to a pub and talked for hours. I had a good day, a full but good day.

I had an absolutely wonderful night with my ladies. I also have some exciting news...but I'm not so sure this is the right place to discuss my new honour...

Can't use my bathroom, la la-la la-la la. Need to get a shower, la la-la la-la la. Jimmy's in the process of putting a door on my bathroom, so at least when I do get to have a shower it will be without the hasle of having to cover the door somehow.

Yay me for getting up at around eight. It's amazing how much difference the sunshine makes to my ability to get out of bed. I've done a random assortment of things today...only one two of which was were on my list...oops. I did some sorting and weeding of random things such as: cds, make-up, jewellery.

Dude...time to get a semi-early night's sleep and make tomorrow a productive day.

Things to do:

• send application to UPEI
• call Testori
• contact Mt. Stewart testing lab
• wax
• find home for hats and purses
• clean bathroom
• do laundry
• hem duvet cover
• wash and hang blue curtains
• unpack the last two boxes from Crummy
• untangle the mess of coax cable
• vacuum

Well...today I wandered randomly and spent money I do not have. I'm feeling a little bit sheltered. I used to wander randomly and drop in on various folks. I don't seem to do that anymore. It was odd today to go out and wander randomly as I could not remember what it is like to be random. I think a little bit of Lex randomness showed its face last night. I was not aware until now that I miss it. I've been bogged down and stressing. I suppose it also has a bit to do with being in strange surroundings. Being home feels like a weight off my shoulders. I'll soon be in trouble for my free-er self though as I haven't been focused on job hunting but rather on freeing my mental health. I do feel better. I could use a good party to let loose.

El first bonfire of the year. Ah... It was the first time I've been hanging out with a group of people without Brandon in a very long time. Teasing each other gave me a chance to reminisce to myself about the changes I've been through in the past few years. At one point I heard myself say, "it hasn't been that long" when answering the question, "How long have you and B been together?" Everything is relative. Knowing how long we will be together makes the time we have been together seem short. What I don't understand is how we know we will be together. You spend years trying to make relationships work and giving people second chances and then bang, there it is. It was like it just fell into place and everything was logical again. Somedays I wish I could explain it because I wish that others would know whether or not they should be "throwing in the towel."

In other news, I passed all of my classes this semester...even if it was close.

I've been home about a week now, and am starting to settle in. There is so much to be done here. My space in the basement is starting to take shape; I have a card table in one area, two cozy armchairs in another, and my desk in a third area. The bedroom area has been separated from the living space by a closet, but the new walls haven't been seem filled yet, so allas I cannot paint. Soon it shall all come together.