Since when does everyone do their grocery shopping at lunch time? It just took me a half an hour to pick up juice crystals at the Superstore...insane.

Thursday, January 23, 11:02 PM

Okay, so apparently Ang is once again bored beyond, and I am supposed to post...there's an issue with that, I'm in Halifax with no internet...this will be a saved post. It's Dal tour time. How is this whole tuition hoist thing going to affect us? Just how broke will I eventually be? I need to be careful with the whole money issue, otherwise I may have to look at the UNB option even closer. How many times have I said I hate money? It would truly make life easier if money were not a concern. We could all chose the program we really wanted without any concern for finances. I also wish space were not a concern...distance I mean. Tomorrow I'll see just how much the Dal program really is directed at me.

How odd this is; I'm sitting at home wanting to do work, but I can't. Bizarre. Silly me, left my books at B's thinking he would be just as quick as I would. I have the funny feeling I'm not going to get to go to bed all that early :( I suppose I'll survive. What a sook I am.

Apparently if you leave me alone for four hours I lose my mind. I don't think my notes could possibly be anymore organized. I should, once again, have been working. I was not, surprise surprise. I still don't want to face those problems, particularly without any present moral support. I still have more than an hour to kill before work, and I can guarantee that those problems won't be getting done in the mean time. I think some supper is in order, but other than that...I think it's just one of those days where I don't want to do anything productive. I'm not a fan of those days, they get me in trouble. Damn you Linda for working this afternoon! I think we need each other to get the work done.

Okay, I'm sitting here at B's, supposed to be working, as is he. He's doing a better job than I. I don't know what I'm doing. We both know what happens when I don't know what I'm doing, I come back to the keyboard and hammer away. I'm coming to the conclusion that I haven't been posting as I used to. I wonder if it's that I'm just having too much fun with life and not over-thinking things, or is it that I'm not relaxing and contemplating things as I had been? If you think long and hard most general, everyday situations have a distinct positive and negative view that may be taken. It is up to each of us to take a moment and look for the positive side; I think it would be well worth an extra second's reflection. It's time to leave the negativity behind. Although I do worry that I may never be able to take the extra second when I'm super sleepy as I am right now (I tend to be a grump).

Some days I really wish I didn't have to spend time with my mother.

So I could have slept in another hour this morning and forgot. Wayne cancelled this morning's 9:30 class, and that's my first class of the day...I forgot. Rah, how silly I can be.

I think I have a sleep problem. I'm starting to wonder. I sleep in an insane amount whenever I can, and if I take a nap it lasts for hours. I don't think these are good signs, particularly since I'm so tired when I'm awake.

So I'm thinkin someone's a little bored...they seem to be visiting my page quite frequently. I wish there were more interesting things to read, I also wish you were here so you could come visit me at work tonight. Dreams Among Stars, tonight, at Brennan's.

So I'm driving home from Brookvale tonight and this piece of trash keeps riding my ass. It takes awhile and they finally pass me. Who is it? That's right, the cops. Fucking RCMP. It's icy, I'm doing the speed limit and they pass me. Bah!

I'm having a great deal of difficulty seeing how quickly things can change. I think I'm under the impression that if I pretend things aren't happening they won't. For instance I'm pretending I don't have to go back to class tomorrow, and that my workbook is not due tomorrow. It's going to take some hard going if I'm to finish it on time. There are other things I was pretending weren't happening, but I think they did. I think I was sure they never would, at least not until I had left home and instilled a little change of my own. I'll miss these regularities in my life, but similar changes have occured in the past, and they've been endured with little pain. I'd say that's enough of the vague discussion for one post.

Alright, what happened to the month long vacation? Here I am, in a panic because once again I have procrastinated my way into a corner. I have two days left to finish my coaching workbook. Of course, as usual, I only started it two days ago. Since I'm sitting here typing away, you've probably realised that I've accomplished enough to feel confident that I can finish on time. Don't fret, I won't finish in plenty of time, just on time; we wouldn't want to upset the balance of nature.

Alright; whoever gave me their germs is deadmeat. I'm told it's Sarah...she's too young to die.