I know I was talking to some of you about our gifts from the house money. Mom's going to trade in her car and get something newer, and I'm getting a notebook computer for school. Well, we went to futureshop a few days ago to browse. We did our browsing, and we did our choosing. I got a pretty little hp pavillion. I don't know if I can wait for Christmas to come to use it.

Life can be pretty crazy sometimes. I get the feeling I'm getting to the point were I should sit down and re-evaluate things. At the same time, I don't think I'm ready to change anything. I think this being my last year on the island for awhile has made me want to relax. I haven't really done much of that in the past. Work of any kind always came first. Work will be important for the rest of my life, I'm not able to make myself believe that the degree of which I'm slacking off is really a bad thing at the moment. I love what I'm doing and I love excelling at it; however should I just scrape by I won't be wounded by it. I just keep contemplating the damage I'm doing, the stress on my system, and the enjoyment I'm gaining.

Babe, I love you, you know I'm here for you...gimme a call. Call me collect, I don't care. If you need anything sent, we can do it. Roadtrip time it shall be come christmas.

Ouf...I think it's time to sleep and recover. Thank God for my nap this afternoon. Ahhh!!! I hate it when Mom tries to talk to me, but doesn't know what she wants to say. It takes five friggin hours for her to get out one sentence. Can ya tell that's what she's doing right now? Bah...I'm going to bed.

Hmm...I'm amused. My mother just told me that my "obsession" with "that music" could be a problem. "That music" by the way is T&S. What a nut.

What a day. I've come to the conclusion that I actually like working at the bar. I think I like it best when I'm working all alone. I put in a damn long day today. I got there at 11h45 and left at about 23h45. I did go home for a whole hour at supper time though; had enough time to eat and change, wow. I think it's far past my bed time at the moment.

Sometimes I get puzzled. I puzzle myself, others just add to my already cluttered mind. Why is it that we try so hard to understand others? All we can do is be ourselves, nothing more; yet we continue trying to decifer the minds of others, hoping for some sort of incite into what they're thinking. All this is doing is confusing us. It's important to learn to step back and take a deep breath; make sure that we aren't trying to adjust ourselves to win someone else's focus. We are all unique individuals and should be appreciated for that alone. It takes time and energy to figure us out. Trying to do this too fast often results in a negative outcome, but we do it anyway.

Sam you rock. I had fun tonight. We had no pre-selected destination, no plans. We drifted, played some air hockey (it's actually quite fun), played a little pool (finally something you haven't mastered yet), managed to fit in some good chats and still came home early enough to make it to class in the morning. We need to do some more random hanging out.

So...I ran. I don't know if it could qualify as a run though. It was the shortest run in history, but I don't care. I'll try harder next time ;)

The rest of tonight I did absolutely nothing productive. I think it's good for us. I'm in a better mood. Wait...I said nothing productive; I found out that the underwear I want I can only get in purple. Bah. It's not even a fun purple either, it's boring old lady purple. Bah again.

Bah work...did I just say that before? I don't know because the blogger server's fucked...bah blogger. Anywho...I should be sleeping, I'm in that brain not processing state. It's really not good for me. Sleep...and work...and exercise...god there's something seriously wrong with me because there is no way I will do any of these. Even picked up a couple of good movies to procrastinate a little more.

Bah work. I always leave far too much work to the bitter end. I never have enough time to finish it and sleep and still have time to relax and enjoy myself. I always do the relaxing and procrastinating and enjoying myself first. I think I got a fair chunk of work done today, but not as much as I had planned. I should be an organized person; I've had plenty of time to perfect it, but I'm not.

I should be exercising too. I feel like the most out of shape individual on the planet; although I know I'm not. The problem is, I look in the mirror and still think I look great. It's very hard to get yourself back to the gym when it isn't absolutely crucial. I'm sure if I were in better shape eating would be a lot more fun though. I haven't been hungry in about a month; probably more than that. Not that I've stopped eating ;)

Last night was...interesting. I think some loose ends may have been tied up. I'm just starting to get tired now, when I really need to wake up. I need sleep, but it's off to thanksgiving festivities.

Boo-yeah! Some days just make me feel good. Sometimes I can't pin-point it, but I think this time I can...and I think my girls all know why. Although I must say, I should have been concentrating a little harder on my work. I will get it done! And then I will sleep. Sweet, sweet sleep, oh how I love thee.

I need a hug and some sleep before I bite anyone else's head off...

I took an extended break this evening. I was supposed to be finishing up my mechanical description. Instead I left it for later and headed to the movies with Andie. Sweet Home Alabama was far better than I expected; I hate Reese Witherspoon, but in this role, I can almost say I liked her. It's a chick flick love story though, and made me think about just how much I want someone around who cares about me...and I'm not talking about friends and family...you all know what I mean.

In other news, I'm stretching the holes in my ears. I was going to get them pierced to 10 gauge, but when I went in Brodie kept looking at my ears and decided I should taper them to a 12 guage instead. My holes have long been healed, they were done evenly and the holes are straight. They were probably at about an 18, so he put the 12s in and in two or three weeks I can put 10s in.

There is so much in this life to think about. One of the best things to do is sit down with someone and discuss the complexities of our lives. There are so many levels in every person; so many experiences we've got under our belts. There are elements of ourselves that we can allow to lay dormant in the back of our minds, not thinking about them until the thought is stirred by another. It is these others that have the ability to stir those thoughts that I grow to love the most.

Deep and meaningful conversation is a necessary element of all of our lives. However it can only have this effect when all that is said is truly genuine, and nothing held back. I hope it won't be something I'll grow to miss, for if it isn't present I truly will grow to miss it dearly.